I am going to TRY and be rather candid about this because I do not want anymore drama started.
Somehow I got thrown into some mess that I do not belong in. I have been careful not to give my opinion on the the situation and to stay out of it.
Well doing something that I do everyday some how got me in the middle of it.
Now I am the one that has to deal with the mess. I have so much going on in my life as it is. This is the last thing I need to deal with. After I am done with this blog I am done with the entire thing. I am going to be an adult and LET IT GO.
My heart breaks just thinking about this entire situation. There have been things said and done that no person should ever have to hear or go through. When those things come from people you love it hurts even more.
I am truely hurt and I do not know what to do about it. I want to scream at the top of my lungs but all that will do is make my throat hurt and wake up the babies. Lord knows I do not want to wake up the babies!
If the person that threw me in this mess is reading this then you know who you are. I doubt you will spend anymore time on me or my family so I doubt you are reading this. For the sake of my sanity I have to get this out. I do not want a screaming match over the telephone nor do I want no hard feelings, so here on the blog it goes.
I am sure that you know that you hurt me in a way I can not explain. I have never in my life done anything to hurt you or your family. I feel like I am being punished for being related to someone I have no control over. FYI- I am related to you too. You are my family and I love you. I have always loved you. Nothing that has happened over the past year has changed that. It is not my business at all and I have made it a point to tell EVERYONE that I am not getting into it. It is not my fight.
I am sorry that I am not choosing sides. I really hope you were not expecting me to, judging from your actions this week I suppose you do. I am sorry but I am not like that, no matter what you think.
You have had to make a choice that no one should ever have to make. I am truely sorry for that, however, it was your choice, not mine, so why am I being punished for it?
The deliberate removal of myself and my family from your life will do nothing but hurt you in the end. Of course my heart is broken at this time, but I have no control over it, you do. If you chose to remove me from your life, that i something you will have to deal with.
2 comments:
I think this blog posting is well said and very non-challenging. People who are in the know will know what you are talking about, but it doesn't "add" drama to the situation in my opinion. It also lets whomever it is about know that the ball is in their court and any further actions will be well, up to them.
I don't think you should feel bad for writing this or stating your opinions in an adult fashion. I am glad you are using your blog in a way to help you communicate with the world as well as yourself. :0 Good for you!
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I'm sorry that you're going through this and, most of all, that your feelings are hurt! That is the worse feeling ever! :(
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